Life Lessons

Failure

“Failure is not falling down, but refusing to get up.”

Yeah there’s plenty of nifty little sayings that try to keep the empty generation motivated.  But there isn’t much out there to keep us up.
High school, isn’t for the weak of heart, many people end their lives before their done with it.  Some don’t finish and just give up.  But there are the fighters who finish.
Me I’m just a no one, a drop out who can’t get life in order.
Yeah its just a game to those who have money and power, but what about those who have to get out to get a minimum wage job or two just to help pay the bills.  There isn’t a category for people like me.  I’m just there.
I’ll always just be there.  But what about you guys?  I know there will always be that point in your life where you just wonder what if.
For me, that question will be “what if I had actually finished high school?”
But I won’t get to find that out, I get to struggle now with my ‘good enough degree’, and always being almost there, but not quite good enough.
Yeah some girls get pregnant before they’re even able to move out, yeah some people do drugs, who hasn’t?
Me yeah I smoke my cigarettes, I smoke weed when it’s passed my way, shit I’ll even pop ecstasy.
Doesn’t mean I don’t realize that I’m completely fucked, and my life is shit.  You know you have it bad when your parents don’t give a shit about whats going on with you.
My family relationship is based on lies, my older brother and I, shit we can lie our asses off, but he’s the lucky one, he could always pull it off and get away with things, me, well I’m a terrible liar, an open book.
There’s not much I’m good at either but sitting on my ass and playing Pokemon, but if you throw SoA my way I can tell you the whole story.  Like those are skills someone actually needs.
My life might seem happy and yeah I tend to ignore all my problems but some days like today, I can’t.  
Days like today I realize that i’m going no where in life.
Days like today I wish that I just had at least one skill that was worthy of some ones interest to get me a job or get me somewhere.  
But I don’t.